i'm so yours for the taking.

I will always remember this as one of the very best days of my life.
December 16, 2004. 5:57 pm.

6 years ago today my love was in my arms again.
Finally.
After two years of nothing but letters and a phone call twice a year.

He was home.

And we'd never have to miss each other again.

I love you more today than yesterday Drew. But not as much as tomorrow.

M

8 years ago today...

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Was one of the worst days of my life. I was hopelessly, miserably, completely, body and soul in love. And I was about to say goodbye to it for two years. My love was leaving and there was absolutely nothing either of us could (or would) do to stop it.

8 years ago today Drew left for his mission. I remember crumpling to the floor of my tiny apartment sobbing, wishing the day had never come. Wishing I had never encouraged him to go. Wishing for all the wrong things. But in that moment I didn't care. All I knew was that he was gone. My air, my heart beat, my song was gone and nothing would be okay again until he returned.

I saw him last a couple nights before his departure. He was so strong and wonderful through the whole thing. He walked me to my car that night, it was rainy and dark and everything about it felt wrong. How could we possibly be saying goodbye for two years? We sat in the car listening to some of the songs he had written to get me through. They were perfectly beautiful and still make me cry today.

I am so so so honored to be loved by him. I am so so so glad I wasn't married to someone else when he returned. And I am so so so happy to be his forever.

I love you hunnie, don't ever think of leaving me again.

M

Here are the lyrics to one of the songs he wrote just before leaving. Sigh. It is a blessed treasure to have a musical man.

The Promise Fulfilled

I've waited for so long for you to come back.

Three years have seen an emptiness in me.

A part in my heart,

where your heart belongs.

Where it fits perfectly.

Now that I've served, and you've served,

let me serve you for all eternity.

After three years the pattern never changed.

I love you more and more everyday.

I still remember...

That smile, those eyes, the tears when we said goodbye.

The promise that I would return and in turn, I'd spend my life with you.

So now thats all been fulfilled and I still can't get by without you.

So now it's time for us to take the next step.

One step to begin our lives together.

Tomorrows unknown but I'll get there with you.

We'll be there hand in hand.

Never again on our own.

Never alone.

To help each other stand.

After three years the pattern never changed.

I love you more and more everyday.

I still remember...

That smile, those eyes, the tears when we said goodbye.

The promise that I would return and in turn, I'd spend my life with you.

So now thats all been fulfilled and I still can't get by without you.

-Drew Blimes

without love i won't survive.

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I remember the moment I realized I was in love with you. I was on Monroe Street stopped in traffic. I was thinking about you and how I would see you soon. ( You lived in tampa then and me in Tally). I was thinking about how in a month or so you would be leaving for two years and I wouldn't get to see you or talk to you. Only write you letters. It was a strange feeling, knowing you wouldnt just be there whenever I wanted, needed. I was pretty sure saying goodbye to you would literally kill me. (And I still say it nearly did.) Even then you were necessary to my survival. Just like you are now. Just like you always will be.

Falling in love with you snuck up on me. It happened slowly, gradually, and before I even realized what was happening  I was gone. I didnt stand a chance really. Some things are just meant to be. I was postive you felt the same. When we were together it felt like the whole world was filled with love.

So I said it first. "I love you." And of course you said it right back. And later that night you walked up behind me, wrapped your arms around me and said "Now when I do this you know it's because I love you."

It was a great moment. One I never want to forget.

I love you still Drew Blimes. "In a not so 'friendly' sorta way."

M

to you.

Remember that time we were in the Bahamas and that creepy voodoo man tried to be our tour guide even though I kept telling him we didn't want one?

Remember how no matter how fast I walked he still kept stepping in front of me and forcing his lame, repetitive facts about the Queens Staircase on us?

Remember how then he wanted us to give him money for a service we refused and did everything in our power to avoid?

Remember how we didn't give him anything?

Then remember how he put the voodoo curse on me and I was wasted and my tummy hurt for the rest of the day?

He was scary.

Remember how you carried me up that monster hill cuz I never woulda made it on my own?

That's why I love you.

Remember that ok?

Don't mess with the voodoo man people. Just smile, nod give him the money. 

M

to the man of my dreams. on his birthday.

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Happy Birthday to you darling!

I love you and I hope you know how sweet you make my life everyday.  You are a man like no other I've ever met. I still can hardly believe you're mine. 

You are good at everything you do.

You  are the funniest person I know (Yes,even funnier than Sister Whipple.)

You are hot, smokin' hot really. Especially in your sunglasses. :0)

You are kind and so caring.

You make Miles and I happy just by pulling into the driveway.

You listen even when I am talking complete craziness and repeating myself over and over and over.

You go out of your way making my happiness a priority. 

You try to better yourself because you know it makes me happy. 

You tell me "Everything will be OK." And you're always right.

You love my through the "dark places" as you call them.

And you never even think I'm crazy.

You always want to cuddle. (Even when I'm about as snugly as a puke covered cactus)

You sit and talk to me while I'm in the tub.

You let me follow you around and cling to you like a leech after a scary movie.

You bring home treats just because.

You joined the softball team with me. (Even though it's your least favorite sport)

You love my baby so much I could cry.

You made me a football study guide so we can enjoy the games together.

You tell me I  am good. 

And I know you mean it.

You tell me I am the most beautiful girl in the world.

And I know you believe it's true.

You love to be loved. 

And I love to love you.

You are an absolutely phenomenal man, husband and father and I am so so so lucky to call you my own. Thank you for being the person you are. You don't even have to try to be cool, funny and h.o.t. and that is pretty awesome.

Happy Birthday Drew, I love you!!!

Marquesas

on growing up.

This past weekend Drew got his very first pair of sunglasses. Ever! (Ok, he said he thinks he may have had some Mickey Mouse ones when he was younger but still...)

He has never had any because he thinks they make him look funny. I'm here to tell ya,

that's. not. true.

He looks pretty smokin in them if you ask me.

Anyway, I don't know what it was but as I watched him driving around town in them I suddenly noticed how very "grown-up" he is. And it made me smile.  He's a man. Like a real man. I have a bread winning, hammer wielding, computer fixing, baby making, taking care of business man!

Just like I always wanted.

I love you Drew. Thanks for growing up with me.

M

thursday.

Things are beautiful if you love them. -Jean Anouilh

moments.

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Dear Drew,

How did you lose 6 lbs in 2 days? HOW? It is not fair.

Just thought you should know.

M

Oh and BTW I am butt crazy in love with you.

That is all.

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to drew, on fathers day.

You are strong but sensitive.



Manly but kind.




Hysterically funny but serious when needed.




You watch out for us.



And protect us.



And provide for us.





You are a wonderful father.



And a wonderful person.




And there's no one on earth I'd rather raise babies with.




I love you today because you gave me Miles.




I love you because of how gentle and kind you are with him.


I love that you are following such an amazing and honest example of fatherhood.



I love your Daddy side.




Basically I just love you.




Happy Fathers Day!

M

and

Miles

for you

"What is the deal with turtle wax?

Is it made of turtles?

Is it used to wax turtles?"

I heart you boobie!

M

beach baby.

This weekend we took Miles to the beach for the first time! HE. LOVED. IT. I'm pretty sure he would have stayed all day wandering around the sands, throwing mud, wading in and out of the water and roaming from blanket to blanket visiting all the friendly faces.

I love seeing him experience new things. Even if it's just trying a new food I want to be there to see his reaction. He is such a bright and fun little guy. I am so happy to be his mama. sigh. :0)




Um. Hello yummy biceps on that hot hot hubby of mine! That's a pretty cute baby they're holding too!



Miles walked me up, down and all around that beach! I think he liked having so much room to roam free.





Many sand castles were destroyed this Memorial Day weekend. (sorry kids)




Ah my adorable baby beach bug.

Truly good times had by all! Hope you Memorial Day was awesome too!

M

like a junkie to a rush

I'd trade my mama for your touch.

Oh wait, that might just be too much.

But I'd do anything but that.



M

(photo taken about 2 days after Drew got home from his mission 12/2004)

letters to drew...

Dear Drew, I love you. Thanks for making me laugh all weekend. I guess having no plans wasn't so bad after all. It was pretty nice being home all weekend with you and our very cute (though very cranky teething) tiny.

I especially liked the part when we swing danced for like an hour and a half and I chicken winged you right in the guts. Ha! And it was fun looking thru all of the kimbe photos and picking our faves together... Also pigging out on pizza and ice cream was pretty good I suppose. :0) Now we begin another crazy work week and (eek P90X round two.) Ah well, relaxation was fun while it lasted!

Let's have a weekend all to ourselves again soon K?

I love you,

M