8 years ago today...

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Was one of the worst days of my life. I was hopelessly, miserably, completely, body and soul in love. And I was about to say goodbye to it for two years. My love was leaving and there was absolutely nothing either of us could (or would) do to stop it.

8 years ago today Drew left for his mission. I remember crumpling to the floor of my tiny apartment sobbing, wishing the day had never come. Wishing I had never encouraged him to go. Wishing for all the wrong things. But in that moment I didn't care. All I knew was that he was gone. My air, my heart beat, my song was gone and nothing would be okay again until he returned.

I saw him last a couple nights before his departure. He was so strong and wonderful through the whole thing. He walked me to my car that night, it was rainy and dark and everything about it felt wrong. How could we possibly be saying goodbye for two years? We sat in the car listening to some of the songs he had written to get me through. They were perfectly beautiful and still make me cry today.

I am so so so honored to be loved by him. I am so so so glad I wasn't married to someone else when he returned. And I am so so so happy to be his forever.

I love you hunnie, don't ever think of leaving me again.

M

Here are the lyrics to one of the songs he wrote just before leaving. Sigh. It is a blessed treasure to have a musical man.

The Promise Fulfilled

I've waited for so long for you to come back.

Three years have seen an emptiness in me.

A part in my heart,

where your heart belongs.

Where it fits perfectly.

Now that I've served, and you've served,

let me serve you for all eternity.

After three years the pattern never changed.

I love you more and more everyday.

I still remember...

That smile, those eyes, the tears when we said goodbye.

The promise that I would return and in turn, I'd spend my life with you.

So now thats all been fulfilled and I still can't get by without you.

So now it's time for us to take the next step.

One step to begin our lives together.

Tomorrows unknown but I'll get there with you.

We'll be there hand in hand.

Never again on our own.

Never alone.

To help each other stand.

After three years the pattern never changed.

I love you more and more everyday.

I still remember...

That smile, those eyes, the tears when we said goodbye.

The promise that I would return and in turn, I'd spend my life with you.

So now thats all been fulfilled and I still can't get by without you.

-Drew Blimes