7/23/08

My Nightmare

Last night I dreamed that Drew had joined the army. He was about to be shipped off to Iraq and it was the last time I was seeing him before he left. It was the most afraid and sad I ever felt in a dream. It felt so real. I was crying and clinging to him but he kept telling me how he had to go and that everything would be alright. Though somehow in my dream, I knew I would never see him again.

I woke myself up crying and rolled over to find it was only a nightmare and everything was just as it should be. I snuggled up to Drew and didn't let go for the rest of the night.

Even though my face was in his armpit when I woke next, I still felt the powerful sense of relief I had earlier in the night. The feeling of gratitude for my husband and all he is to me continued all day long and every time I thought of the dream I remembered what it felt like saying a good-bye that could have been our last.

It's funny how something as simple as a dream can put all the little things into perspective. Lately I have wanted as much room as I can get in the bed and the only thing I've had any desire to cuddle is my body pillow...

After last night i decided the body pillow is sleeping in the closet for a while. I really have no idea how I could go on if I lost Drew. I am so glad it was only a nightmare.

6 comments:

Jenn said...

What a wonderful post, and so true. I actually just got an e-mail from a blogger in Austrailia...I went to the blog and it had a section about encouraging your husband. It said to only say positive things for a whole day and see what it changes. Sometimes we don't realize all the positive things until we're woken up by a nightmare, I suppose.

Olivia said...

I hate nightmares...especially the kind that seem so real! Love the perspective you've gained, though. Unfortunately my hubby tosses and turns too much to replace the body pillow.

Jennifer Porter said...

awwwww, you know everyone's saying it. great post. I love the pic!!! and I know how you feel...I think I'm going to cuddle with my sweet hubby now!

Megan Joy Hull :) said...

on the bandwagon, what a wonderful post. It is a reminder to be greatful to those we have in our lives, especially our husbands each and every day. :)

Valarie said...

Pregnancy dreams. They will be more vivid than you ever imagined a dream could. I had dreams like that everytime I was pregnant (and for a little while after I had the baby, too).
I am certainly glad it was a dream and we didn't lose Drew. That would be pretty devastating to all of us. I actually teared up when I was reading about it.

Jared Gunnell said...

I hate nightmares!!! I was kind of hoping that Animal from the muppets showed up somewhere in the dream. Oh well. I hope you both are doing well.